Portable Folding Hammock

Hi, everyone. How’s it going?

I have a question regarding whether or not I blew it with a female. In my opinion I did, but a few friends have told me I’m being overly negative. So here’s the tale:

I’m in college, as is the female I’m interested in. We met in the spring in a class we both had together. Over the course of the semester we got to know each other and while I thought she was cute and certainly attractive, I didn’t think much of dating her. Well towards the end of the semester she came over to my dorm one night, after I had invited her over to meet my crazy asian roommate. After she met him we both sat at my table (in place of a desk) and worked on homework we had. We chilled and talked about a lot that night and I don’t remember what exactly I said but something I said got her to scoot right next to me. I know it’s no excuse, but I was working on a paper that was due at midnight that night so making a move didn’t really come to mind. So a little later she leaves for her dorm and we don’t talk again until July (aside from small, meaningless text messages).

In July, I’m nearing the end of my summer internship. This internship has provided me with free tickets to a major theme park near me. I have six free admissions, so I ask some of my friends if they’d like to come up. Most decline because they are busy. So in an attempt to use these admissions, rather than waste them, I invite this girl. She jumps on the chance and comes up to the theme parks for two days. The first day we hung out at the parks we had a great time riding the rides, catching up, etc. It seemed to me she was being kindy flirty with me, but I have a tendancy to read into things so I just brushed it off. For example, she grabbed my side when we were talking about working out over the summer and how much weight each of us had lost. Another example would be when we were riding the rollercoasters, she had told me she was afraid of them. I got her to go on them, after a little convincing, and when we got to the big drops she grabbed and held my hand, interlocking our fingers. Ya’ll know what I mean. And she would jump on my back occasionally for a ride. But I just brushed those off because I didn’t want to read into them.

Anyways, she went home that night, because she doesn’t live far from the parks, and came back the next day. We hit up the other theme parks we had missed the previous day and once again had a great time. Later that night we went back to the hotel that she parked her vehicle at. Rather than her leave, however, we decided to hit up the beach of the hotel. She had never been to this hotel so she was amazed at the beach and was exploring. I was dead tired because my summer job started at 4:30 AM and I was up to get myself ready by 3:20 AM. Usually I was in bed by this point, but because I was treating her to this trip I obviously stayed up a lot later. So as we’re walking along the beach we come across a hammock and I crash in it. She joins me but lays at the opposite end. We talk for a little as I fight to stay awake and soon to jokes that she’s going to use me as a pillow and comes over and lays half on me. We continue to talk as she lays on me, but she has her back turned to me. I begin to wonder if I should make a move but needless to say I never do. She texts me while we lay there together, kinda burrowed her face in my arm, and yea. We musta been in that hammock for a few hours. So eventually we get out of there and because its so late I have her stay at my apartment while I leave for work. I didn’t want her driving back so late. (It was like 2:30 AM)

She waits for me to come back from work before she leaves for her job back home. Now she coulda just taken off but she waited. I was surprised but whatever. So I came back to my room, we talked for an hour and then she left.

We didn’t see each other again till we moved back onto campus last week. The day I moved in she wanted to come over and see my new room. So I had her come over later that night and once again we talked, laughed, had a good time. Eventually I closed my door and moved up on the bed with her. But nothing really happened, probably because I didn’t make a move. So she goes back to her dorm.

I see her one more time the next day where I meet some of her friends and her roommate. I talk to them, talk to her, and then I headed out.

So I invited her to a party Friday night and she said she was busy. I invited her to another party on Saturday, as well as offering to take her to lunch. She said maybe but never got back to me about it. So I take it that means she isn’t interested.

I know the world will still turn tomorrow and life goes on, so I’ll be ok. But did my fear of making a move cost me something that coulda been or have I misread something? Any help is appreciated, thanks.